Saturday, March 31, 2007

Dad is Home

Dad is finally home now. He's on oxygen full time. Hospice came in and set up a bed and all the equipment. As you may, or may not know, Hospice usually comes in when there are 6 weeks or less left. Dad has really lost a lot of ground over the last 10 days, and he knows it. He said to my Mom "I'm going downhill fast".

I cannot express to you what it does to me to see my Dad lying in the hospital bed, twitching and reaching out for things that aren't there. Every breath is labored. He looks so fragile, a memory of the man he used to be. I don't have the words or the frame of mind to share with you all that is happening or has happened over the last week. Thank you all for being there for me and my family. Say an extra prayer for us when you have a moment. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I feel so bad for my Mom, she's so strong and yet I know this is breaking her heart.

I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Why haven't we cured this disease yet? With all our advanced medicine and technology, we should have figured out how to kill this disease by now.

I'll be taking vacation time one or two days a week to give my Mom a break. I'll write when I am able.

6 comments:

Denise said...

Oh god, I'm so sorry and unsure of what to really say. This even breaks my heart.

Lady, we're here for you. I know it's difficult to face this shadow of your father. Just cherish every conversation, smile and hug.

You'll all be in my thoughts.

Melissa said...

All I can say is that I am so, so sorry.

I will keep Dad in my prayers. I pray that he can get comfortable and have fun with his time at home. I pray that you can enjoy time with him, however much it might be.

I will be thinking of you.

Thimbelle said...

Oh Sharfa - I wish I could help somehow.

I have already been through this exact thing with my own dad, nearly 17 years ago.

We will keep you and your entire family in our prayers.

(((hugs)))

Thim

KFarmer said...

You know my heart is with you and your family- I'm so sorry you all have to go through this. Sending all my love--->

Suldog said...

Words are not so useful at this point. I wish I had more to give.

Prayers are said for you and your family every night.

(BIG HUG...)

If there is anything any of us can do, you know we say "yes."

shane nickerson said...

I'm so sorry Sharfa. I'll be thinking of you and your family.